"How are you feeling?!"

This is a common question that I have been getting lately and it is very difficult to give a straight answer.  I go through a range of emotions in a day(...heck minute) and I don't want to throw off the vibe that I have it all together because in all honesty...I am treading water right now!  I look back in the 3 weeks since Peter was born and I am shocked at all that has transpired.  The guests, baptism, birthday parties (for friends and for the record it took me 2 hours to get out of the house that morning!), doctors appointments for both Peter and myself, etc.  Trust me, there has been tears, yelling, a LOT of TV for Matthew and Maggie and countless amount of Starbucks coffee consumed.  I am trying to let it go and remember it is just a *blip* in my life and soon we will be out and about but it is really difficult.  Just to find time to update my blog and check the others that I like to look at seems daunting!  I think taking care of Peter in and of itself is not that bad...I mean this is my 3rd baby and get up, nurse, change diapers, repeat is nothing new.  It is doing all the rest of the day with the other two AND Peter that seems overwhelming at times.  One of my besties put me at ease by reminding me that I am a schedule person and right now chaos has to be my norm.  This made me think and yes, she is right.  I am so used to being on a schedule and getting out of the house doing various chores.  This is definitely not happening right now.  In fact, showering is happening on a very basic level right now.  And don't get me wrong, I am not expecting that my body be in any good condition right now (I am not even cleared to work out for 3 more weeks) but that is hard too.  I am recovering and feeling pain in my tummy while the nerves rejuvenate but I am looking forward to getting back into a workout routine whatever that may look like.  Anyway, I just wanted to put out the honest answer for those of you that are wondering.  I am doing ok and I know it will be ok, but it is an adjustment and sometimes a struggle!  Peter is the sweetest baby and the other two are doing really well with him but it still is "one day at a time!" I have to give a shout out to my most supportive husband who has been amazing and seen me lose it a couple of times and my friends who have listened and not judged me.  Just getting out the feelings have been awesome:) xoxo