If you watch the show "The Biggest Loser" then you know that every contestant has their "breakthrough" moment when Jillian cries with them. Well Chris and I usually kinda chuckle and roll our eyes and fast forward (we
DVR it. You can watch the whole show in an hour if you fast forward through all of those "sappy" parts!) Well I guess I am having one of those moments today. (Settle in people because this could be a long one...and NO there aren't going to be any pictures!!)
For those of you who
regularly read this, you know that I am on a weight loss journey. So far I have lost 27lbs and I have roughly 17lbs more to go. I am really proud of the weight I have lost and I am not going to lie, it has been difficult at times. I have worked really hard to loose that weight. Well, for the past couple of weeks I have been slowing a little. Today I had a weigh in with Travis (he is my amazing trainer! Thank god he is my trainer. Seriously this man is like my brother and knows me so well!!) I only lost 1.4 lbs for the past two weeks. Yes, it is a loss but I know I can do better than that. We talked a little and I told him that I would commit to losing 10 more pounds but I didn't know if I could get down another 17lbs! He assured me that I could and it would be perfectly healthy for my body. I was feeding him all the crappy excuses that I had: I am having
pms this week, I don't want to eat like a bird forever, blah blah blah. He listened and just said "Well then, commit to another 10 if you want." And that was that. Well as we were working out, I was thinking about it (and I have continued to think about it since) and I had my "Jillian" moment.
What is my problem? Why am I giving up? It would be like running 10miles of my 13 for this 1/2 marathon that I am training for and think well, it is too much so I am going to quit. HELL NO! Then I realized that I am scared. I will admit it: I AM SCARED!!!!! I am scared that I won't be able to do it. I am scared that I will be so close but not able to reach my goal. I am scared of what I will have to give up. I think this stems back to a time when I lived in Ohio and I got skinny. I was not eating much. I never ate a cookie or drank a glass of wine. I logically know that I am doing it MUCH healthier this time but I am afraid that this part of me will emerge and it scares me. The thing is when I really think about it, I have done a lot of scary things in my life. I have moved across the country, I have already run one 1/2 marathon and I am training for a second, I have had two children. I mean these are really scary things. So after realizing what is holding me back, I thought about why I deserved it. (Jillian ALWAYS asks the contestants "Why are you here then?") I do a lot of stuff for other people in my life. I am not complaining but it is the nature of my job! This is my one selfish area. I deserve to be the weight I want to be. I deserve to wear the size I want to wear. My body has not been my own for about 5 years now (on and off) and now it is mine! I feel great, I feel strong and I deserve all of it! I want to be an example to my kids and I want to be healthy for myself. I want to feel good about myself and finish what I started. So by god I am going to lose those last 17lbs!!! You just watch me:)
Seriously, I should have named her Margaret Tenacious Herzog. I mean when you are named after your paternal grandmother who has viking blood and is half Fischer (my maiden name) you know you are in for it! This weekend we went to a roller skating party. I haven't been roller skating in probably 15 years! It was really fun. Chris got his skates and took Matthew around the rink once before Matthew was like "no thank you!" so he got some $0.25 cars to play with. Maggie kept running out onto the rink and finally I thought "What the heck!" and got her and myself some skates. They were the smallest size they had:) We went on out and she wasn't feeling well so she had a mixture of laughing and crying (hence the picture) as we went around the rink. When I took her off the rink she cried to go back so I am not sure what her deal was! People were asking me how old she was and I would say "16 months! And she started walking a mere 2 months ago!!" Ohhh Maggie. Something tells me that this is only the beginning...
The finished product.
I know it sounds nasty but as some of you may or may not know, Maggie is a bit lactose intolerant. I thought it was just milk but as I am finding she is in a much better mood if she doesn't have a lot of cheese or ice cream. It kind of stinks because I feel bad in the rare occasion that we do go get ice cream she can't really participate. The last time I let her eat it, she was up at 3:30 am with an upset stomach. She is fully on goat's milk now and I am lucky that I have Huckleberry's nearby to buy interesting goat products. I bought some goat's yogurt and it happened to be Strawberry flavor. SHE LOVED IT! and it made me so happy that she can eat it and not have an upset stomach. When my parents were in town last weekend, my mom made this really good dessert that called for this strawberry puree mixture that was awesome. Then it dawned on me: this would be so good in ice cream, I have an ice cream maker, and I can make it for Maggie!!! The strawberry flavor is a good pairing for the "tang" of the goat's milk. So I tried it and it was a BIG HIT! Matthew even ate it which is amazing! I am actually using goat's milk in my coffee. I know it sounds kind of strange but I actually don't mind/notice the flavor and it doesn't upset my stomach either (clearly it runs in the family!) I guess the moral of the story is, you can't rule out foods just because it seems strange:) Glad we didn't!!
I am in trouble...she looks like she is checking her blackberry!! haha
She is obsessed with lifting up her dress...
My mom finally finished this darling little dress that she knit for Maggie. I love it and I am so happy that it is a bit warmer so she can wear it with leggings now, and in the fall/winter, it can transition into a shirt!! Love it mom, thank you!!!
*These next few pictures are the war wounds he has gotten lately. This one on his face came from trying to jump out of the jogging stroller as Chris was stopping to let him out. I think he wanted to test Newton's laws of physics...yes they still work! 
*This last one is from Olivia's bike. He wanted to ride it to ring the bell and I guess he couldn't figure out how to use the breaks. He zoomed into a scooter and fell off. Thank god he had his helmet on. I thought he had broken his arm but just a scratch! AHHHH it is beginning!
I mean REALLY! I just want to squeeze her:)
when a laundry basket is more fun!?! They must have spent and hour playing and pushing each other (well Matthew did most of the pushing) around the kitchen and living room. Pretty funny!!!
We have been very fortunate in making new friends since we have moved to Spokane. Of course none can top having some very best ones a couple of doors down. Matthew LOVES Olivia and Nolan and every day asks me to ride bikes or go outside and play with them. It is too cute. Kelli and I joke that neither of us can move without both of us moving next door to each other! My mom took this picture when they stayed with the kids a month ago and I think it says it all! Love you guys:) xoxo
Hope you all had a blessed Easter. Ours was very nice. We went to chruch (still working on getting there and keeping the kids in the pew), stopped by Uncle Mike's and Tante Jean's, and then rounded out the day with having dinner with Chris' parents and sister. It was a great day!
